Thursday, 28 June 2018

Womens voices being heard

Just been looking at my blog stats and it is amazing how Women's voices are being heard globally.  Sadly I still have not got the attention of the UK government on the need to urgently reform the DWP as women's lives are being put at risk with drops in support.  Women are left penniless by their controlling violent perpetrators it is part of the perpetrators behaviour pattern....they will financially cripple their victims as well as physically and psychologically abuse them.  The victim when she gets out has to then try to rebuild her life while going on a turbulent pathway of healing, detoxing from the ugliness of violence upon her...... For then the system to be so badly designed with policies from a previous PM David Cameron that demonises those on welfare benefits..... is shameful as the welfare benefits are there to help those that are in need and are vulnerable......I cannot seem to get Theresa May our present PM to respond to this campaign with an urgent reform of the DWP to give women a strong and stable pathway of support.... and the survivors of domestic violence needs some reparation for all the criminal abuse upon them....
She says she has put £20 million in to help women but this is NOT being felt by those on the front-line in rebuilding their lives. Women are being chased by bailiffs for said debts when it is the system that has failed her creating those debts! This is perverse given all that women have been through in their abuse. 

It is good that I have had a global response of visitors to this blog and some messages that they are shocked at the UK how I and others are being treated.... The lack of compassion for survivors and help is shameful.  To compound issues in my case (and there are other over 60s that have lost to controlling perpetrators) we that were born in the 1950s are denied our State Pension till we are 66 yet need this before to give us some financial dignity.  

The UK is my motherland and ancestral country.  My ancestors have paid tax to every King Queen and Government of this land..... everyone on this land pays tax be it from VAT to income tax.... so why is there such disarray in our system of supporting those in need?  It is bad management and very dangerous to leave women without funds to feed herself and keep up to bills to keep the phone link and have gas and electric...Women have fallen victims to controlling violent perpetrators and to keep dropping support or providing inadequate support could result in her life being lost to suicide! She has been made to feel unworthy by the manipulating perpetrator- then the system makes her feel a non person!  The drops in support also keep her tethered to the past pain and why she is in this dreadful state...To have financial dignity would give her the freedom to get all the support she needs, reconnect with her true self not the contaminated distorted self. 

Women need support to heal, detox from the ugliness of violence and helped to rebuild their lives....they may not be able to enter the job market immediately with loss of confidence and unable to cope with any work environment bullying.... She needs an overlap of support when ready to get back to work and once she has healed and is able to perform she will be one strong woman for any team, company or organisation.  
Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 
I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.
Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Tuesday, 26 June 2018

DWP drops support again

I have always been a caring person 
yet the system is failing to care for me in my time of need! 
Trying to get some financial dignity is becoming impossible. But I do not give up I am my mothers daughter and I will find a way somehow.  I was supposed to receive the reduced ESA payment yesterday but it was not there in my bank... it has taken 2 days to get through to the DWP.. phone lines bumped me off 4 xs yesterday then 5th time on hold and no customer service agent.  Today laid on bed with the classical music hold for hour and then got a kindly agent answer.  I feel that the agents are frustrated with the system as much as the claimants.  I am in a cusp of waiting for the Work Capability assessment report - I attended that last Wednesday in West Ealing.  A lovely staff nurse from Charring Cross did the assessment.  We were both agreeing if I had been in a fixed NHS contract when all this happened with Amine breaking my arm then leaving me after his ILR then I would have had the support of the NHS occ health, the right to 6 months sick with full pay & thereafter half pay and helped back into some part time hours and then maybe full time hours if I could... but I was in Zero hours contract being agency.. so no work no pay! I have not been a wimp, but women do have to go through some horrid pain of depression, need to detox from the ugliness of violence upon them... and to do all this with limited funds or drops in support is difficult and can exacerbate the pain not help. The present system can lead to the risk of suicide from the drops in support and the depression.  It feels like the system becomes your perpetrator battering you deeper and deeper into poverty and the feeling of being a non person. 

Last week not only did I have to touch all the past pain in a 2 hours assessment for the DWP but then unprepared unannounced the E.ON collectors came to me on the next day.  I have been trying to get E.ON to work with me and get some package of support together for women survivors of domestic violence. I have a ever increasing bill to pay with no funds to pay it. Other bills and food and clothing I need too pay too.  I try so hard. But have no £$£$ assets to help me!

I have volunteer hours with a British NGO one day a week that I can build my portfolio with and follow staff training programmes and it may lead to some paid work.  But the agent for the DWP says volunteer work is not accepted by the DWP for JSA as it is thought if you can do volunteer work you must find paid work... but I am 64yrs and paid work is not being offered me only volunteer work..... Even today I dropped into my local hospital to see if I can help with teaching - but the education department say there is no funding to offer me as a visitor lecturer or some part time teaching. They could only offer me volunteer teaching... which I suppose I could earn from writing up articles about... But then I have been trying to get some work in publication... It is a long time since I have had professional articles published.... even though I have been working online with a Palestinian nursing student and writing articles together we have not had them accepted for publication.  I have also been working online with Syrian refugees and tried to get an article in publication on the counselling we have been doing with the patterns and trends of feelings and emotions of what is shell shock. 

I am writing this update today to try and show you and me that I do have a worth in the world...but all I need is someone to help me with paid work or sponsorship. 

I have grabbed some books from my bookshelf just now to show you my knowledge base and skills this is only a glimmer of me and all my experience. I have worked in specialist areas of Coronary care including scrubbing for angiograms and angioplasties,  I have worked in Oncology in both a regional radiotherapy unit and professorial Gynaecology oncology unit.  I have worked in A/E and medical and surgical areas, I am a midwife worked in top teaching hospitals with experience in facilitating SVD in both high and low risk cases, caring in HDU and scrubbing for C-section - I was well liked by the Obstetricians that had private patients and would help with their caseload and worked in research posts too.  I enjoyed research and data base management too.

I have classroom teaching experience for adult education on the Access to Higher Education Health pathway..... I love blossoming people to reach their full potential.... I have a TEFL to help teach English and love teaching English for health professionals... My work with the Syrian refugees has made me aware that I love working with children too - in fact when my girls were little I would help in the classroom and the teacher would say Marjorie why don't you train to teach. But I opted for SEN RN RM BSc Nursing and took my career as nurse and midwife.  

But I fell victim to violent controllers and my life has been ransacked by not one to two perpetrator "husbands" - unworthy of the title of husband... as husband should be loving and caring for his wife, valuing her and respecting her for all she is and does. 

So here I am penniless reliant on the DWP helping me from all the tax I have paid in over my years working.  My first job in 1969...but as I am 1954 born I am denied my state pension which would afford me some financial dignity...  
I enjoy my volunteer work with refugees and my personal project Family Link Up but need funding for this... all attempts for grants, funding and sponsorship as led to no offers. But I will keep trying - the more I am challenged the more I wil fight for a better platform of support for women.







Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 
I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.
Turning pain into Campaign!
Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Sunday, 10 June 2018

Women's March in London

and here is a link to some of the creative stitching of banners today 
Oh missed the women's march. Was ill this morning then found out when switched the TV on. My illness was depression shut down was curled under the blanket feeling that no matter what I do I cannot get out of the aftermath of my life ransacked.  Of course I have no financial dignity with the reduced ESA payments so this makes you feel like an outcast... and mega frustrated as you cannot do all the things you would like to do.... and eat as this is becoming an issue... how many of you have fancied a coffee and cake today in the local cafe - I could not do this as no funds to do.... or how many of you bought a gift or new item of clothing on the spare of the moment spend..... I used to be able too but now cannot not.....I am trying to get paid work as you know but no one interested in a 64yrs old. But do get offers of volunteer work - I try to market the NYR but no orders come through and I apply for grants and funding but with no success..... Been reading a book on the power of money and how we have to love it and use it in love to attract it.... I could earn good wage... but my perpetrators used me as a money making machine to take for their own agenda and sure was not one filled with love but their selfish greed and selfish goals... once they got what they wanted I was discarded as rubbish. 

I did shower and go down into London calmly and feeling mentally bruised. But have managed to speak to a small group about women's voices to be heard then perfect talked with a doctor writer activist with an international group. She actually lives near me wow kismet. We are going to email share material and meet up to muscle up my campaign. "Alls well that ends well!". But still would have been an energy boost to have march among the banners. Parliament police chatted with me. Trust me to miss the march after all hours i spend lobbying. But all disgusted with way DWP treating me & other survivors.
Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 
I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.
Turning pain into Campaign!


Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!
Some flowers in the suffragette colours on my way home this evening.