Labour MP's applaud WASPI women protesting Chancellor's speech

Thank you to the Daily Mail and other news reporting sites but sadly this was not mentioned on the TV news channels - just like the 10th October rally there seems to be a government silencing of media to report the injustice and pain of women born in the 1950s denied their pension at 60yrs! I find it deplorable and a disgrace that we have a Government prepared to ignore the social pain that their malpolicies create for society!  As people find out about the injustice there is more and more support for the WASPI women. Amazing that the Tory Party are prepared to lose over 3 million votes because of this situation. Thank you to the Labour Party and the SNP for showing your support!

My voice continues to be heard but needs action!

I have been active though you will see that there has been a gap on my updates for this blog.

The reason I kept static on the postings was that I had submitted the blog as referenced evidence to the Dept of Home Affairs for their Inquiry into Domestic Abuse,

The report is out but sadly my points have not been highlighted.Parliamentary Inquiry into Domestic Abuse There are lots of references in the witness statements to financial abuse but not the overt recognition of the need to support women better on their pathway of healing, detoxing from the ugliness of violence upon her and rebuilding her broken life.  

I strongly continue to state that women's lives are being put at risk when she is left penniless, her career ruined and at the mercy of welfare benefits.... There is much attention on the failings of the DWP to support those in need generally on the news as we move towards Universal Credit being rolled out nationally... We hear of those that have weeks without funds and those that have been sanctioned on JSA for failing to turn up to appointments (for women subjected to DV this should be an alert to check on her safety)  or simply unable to find any work, those on ESA that have had their GP assessment countered by a work capability assessment deemed fit for work then the darn welfare support suddenly stopped.  These failing are DANGEROUS TO WOMEN SURVIVORS - she could return to her perpetrator and the next beating be her murder or she could commit suicide in the post traumatic stress depression.  WE SIMPLY CANNOT IGNORE THIS VERY REAL RISK FACTOR... We have to also see that women when they "get out" of the abuse is NOT a case of "she is out of it so safe and over it...." the psychological damage can take years to heal and will always be in flash backs from the trauma.  I have shared with you before that when I have had DWP  hassle and local council hassle from letters to say my funds have been stopped and demands for payments, when have no funds to pay as led to - twanging me back to the past and its pain.  You can lay on the bed depressed and feel every punch... and kick..... and slap again..... and hear all the horrid vile things that have be shouted at you to belittle you and humiliate you.  

I, along with other survivors feel when the system fails us it is like that system has become our perpetrator battering us over and over again. 

We really need reparation for the criminal act on us by our perpetrators and we need a strong and stable pathway of support to healing... with an overlap of support when we are ready to enter the job market to be sure we can cope.  The funding for this from government will not be wasted but paid back in the income tax we will earn from being settled again in some work and regaining our financial dignity.. 

To care is an investment for the our future well being. 

Inadequate support that pushes women into poverty with hunger and no financial dignity is unacceptable and a breech of State Duty of Care to survivors - and this is to UN directives on care of women subjected to violence in war and peace time.  

As a society we must review our whole stance at the present attitudes and mal policies of the DWP...... the vulnerable and needy must have and deserve protection with the right to financial dignity. 

For me left penniless by my perpetrators I have another issue to contend with and campaign for..... that of my State Pension. I was born in 1954 so fallen foul of the shift in retirement age.  I have submitted a complaint about the DWP on the two issues I am facing as I move to my most vulnerable years in old age penniless. My form to the Parliamentary Ombudsman has been given to my MP & Shadow Chancellor John McDonnell to present my case.

Continuing to turn Pain into Campaign.

But in that pain have been referred to the Community Mental health team as I dropped into a form of Seligman's helplessness waking each morning to the same problem no matter how pro active I have been... and continue to be... waking with a choking sensation my throat tightened in a panic attack and coughing and vomiting - a most horrid feeling and a physical manifestation of the way I am feeling - choked with the situation unable to escape from the claws of the past abuse upon me and be free to rebuild my life with dignity. 

You can catch up on the campaigning for my State Pension with the #shouldertoshoulder rally on my Cup of tea share care blog... The rally on the 10th October INTERESTINGLY was not covered on the mainstream TV news channels despite the women stopping traffic outside parliament... why is government wanting to MUTE our voices?!? 

Daughters of those that served in WW2

No woman should be feeling like this - especially like me after Domestic Abuse you can see how it compounds my pain!

I am stuck in the duality of pain from DV & Lack of State Pension!

You can watch the footage of the rally on this link 

Working Class Hero

Women's Voices must be heard

Look how this is ageing me & challenging my health!

Bad housekeeping of the PM as I and others are costing the NHS 

from the ill health of being robbed of financial dignity!

Breaking Free from the Past pain

Robbed and punched and left for dead…. But no not robbed of my spirit and my inner fight to survive.   I have been robbed of my now and my future with another as who wants a woman with no means to support herself and others…..I maybe alone -  But I am Marjorie, The Moroccan criminal did not realise that an English woman and a Northerner cannot be broken….she may have been taken for a ride in her openness to love and to trust and to care…. But by God when she wakes to the full impact of his true character and his manipulative use of her… then she becomes strong and fights on for not only herself but other women too.   I have done so much with nothing and times of very little….. I have achieved much within this time alone… Even walked in parliament my stomach growling with hunger and with down trodden shoes …but walked tall turning the negative pain into campaign… 

A campaign to get women’s voices heard…. We need our dignity our financial dignity given back so we can free ourselves from the torturous talons of our perpetrator captors…talons that penetrate into our very being even after we have left that tethers us to the past… We need a government to see the pain and understand the pain of our pathway ... our need to heal and detox from the ugliness of violence upon us…. We need the loving support of a system that understands not one that fails us and continues to batter us down with no financial support to give us the dignity we deserve…. We are the victims not the criminals and for the DWP malpolicies to be designed to demonise those in need it is not acceptable for anyone that is in need of benefit help… Yes women want to work but have to be ready mentally, physically and spiritually to enter the work arenas …they cannot take the pressures immediately or for sometime after, even for years after with the post-traumatic stress and pain. Some will never be able to work never be able to reconnect with the woman they used to be….some so physically maimed not be able to work at all... I think of a survivor in my neighbourhood with her back broken by her perpetrator on morphine for the rest of her life and walks with a rolator every painful step a reminder of his fool deed on her...yet only in her thirties!  Policies to support need to be written with full understanding of the pathway of hurt and rebuild that is needed…. 

There can be those that do not understand that think “oh she is out of it she must get on with her life now!”  some women do get on with work life but at some point the pain pours out....... I have witnessed this is a long term survivor that held her self together for the sake of her kids.....but POW! when the kids were grown and independent then all the pain came thundering out of her and she had to go on the path of healing and detoxing from the ugliness of violence upon her........ 

Some will say. "what kind of a woman lets a man hit her I would never let a man touch me!” These remarks show ignorance of the nature of the criminal perpetrator on his prey.     It is like blaming or criticising a soldier captured & tortured by the enemy….. would you really fix blame on that soldier that fell to an ambush? Women were ambushed in a way. Women fell victim to a criminal perpetrator…. Who was manipulative of her heart and her love, used her and abused her….. held her in fear for some women but mostly held her in his manipulation of her love.  I once wrote an article that was published anonymously in the nursing press…I entitled the work “Caresses like Feathers, Fists like Iron!”… this was to give you the idea of the duality of the perpetrators character….. he can be gentle and caring and loving that is who you fell in love with.... then the monster in him reveals itself of being the violent controller… and yes his fists can be like iron…. as I write this I have the pain and imagery come back to me of what it is like to be punched so hard in the face in the eye and how the optic nerve can be so intensely triggered you are lost in the overwhelming bright light that is sent through your brain and seems to surround your very being to disorientate you.  I have seen my cheek and orbital area swell from looking out that in that moment been in a panic that my eye ball has been jolted out of my socket.  So intense the punch..

Then comes the caresses like feathers again and the remorseful holding of you in his arms. The begging of forgiveness and how can he do this to his precious darling…he won’t drink again he claims.  Then kisses he plants on the bruises he made….tenderly cares for you as you lay like an injured animal unable to move in shock on the bed.  He asks that you give him another chance… he will accuse you of making him angry and he lost control he did not know what came over him….He can even make the most wonderful love of his victim to capture her again in his monstrous talons of cruel manipulation of her heart and her loving nature.  She believes and she feels the love, but this is distorted love and yet it leads her to protect him, she becomes passive and can deny the attack on her being not only outwardly to the police but inwardly as she falls for his hall of mirror control of her.

It is bizarre I know even I looking back on the abuse I fell for ....now can see how bizarre this is….. if a total stranger came in your house and attacked you – you would be trying like crazy to shout for help or reach for the phone to get the police and prosecute…. But this is the man you love or the projected caring side of him that you love….. it is cruel beyond cruel that a man can do this to a woman rape and control her inner spirit and heart that simply just wants to love a man and care for him… as a partner in life…. Yet this criminal perpetrator character has an hidden agenda. a aim to use and abuse her and move on when he has done his foul deed of destroying her…. Or continues and continues till she can take no more and flees from his clutches……

Some glib remarks that come our way to suggest we enjoy his beating! How cruel some peoples ignorance can be…. Suggesting it is a form of consented enjoyed sadism…. But the chain the woman is bound with is the chain of 9 amino acids called oxytocin…. She fell in love with this monster bonded to the kind gentle side of him…the side he projected to win her over to deliberate capture her heart and this is why she stays, can even think she can heal him and make him better from the foul side of him…

Reading this like me typing this you can feel the heavy evil control of a criminal perpetrator over his prey…..

You can see how women need the time and space to heal and detox from this ugliness so needs a government DWP policy written with the understanding of this. Be non-judgemental and certainly not become a pseudo perpetrator by beating her down with failed support or inadequate support. 

Help us break free from the past not keep us tethered to the past and all its pain! We need financial dignity to truly heal and move on …but may not be ready for some time to enter the job market till we have fully detoxed from the vile control of our very nature as a woman that loves too much!

I am grateful that this blog has become a Voice for Women to be heard in Whitehall … It cannot be accepted as a formal written statement for the Home Affairs Select Committee Inquiry into Domestic violence as the blog is already out in the public domain….but can be referred too and is being read to help the committee understand… I am more than willing to go before the committee to share my experience as an expert by experience…..

Alongside this my voice has been heard in the City Hall of London through the Victim’s Commissioner report into assessing the victims pathway after all types of crime upon them…

So Marjorie is her mothers daughter and when knocked down get up and stands tall turns her pain into campaign for all women aside her and behind her that have survived domestic violence and just simply ask for the right of financial dignity to heal and rebuild their broken lives…

For those women that were born in 1950s that have been long term survivors of domestic abuse and reached old age with not the assets they once had… it is fundamental that she be permitted her state pension. Over 60s out of the job market find it very difficult to get paid posts offered but endless voluntary work offered…So this must be recognised on an individual case basis and under the protection of support for women survivors… In my situation to simply get my state pension would give some value and dignity back from this my motherland..... after all I have paid in to the system so have the right for this…. And if we as the WASPI campaign can get a lump sum compensation that would be wonderful for me to completely BREAK FREE from the past and truly rebuild what bit of my life is left to build as I enter my elderly years.

Please keep signing the petition to show your support for women's voices to be heard.... Many thanks Marjorie

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform the DWP policies to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Sunday Morning battering by failed system

I have been woken up this morning by the harassment of the energy company that provides my Gas & Electric.  I have accumulative arrears for my studio age restricted bungalow with the London Borough of Hillingdon.

The service provider does try to help me and over the last couple of years I have actioned all the suggestions and applied for energy grants but have been declined them.. The letters saying we can see you need help but more than a one off help. 
I have over this time had sanctioning from JSA for taking a volunteering post with an NGO..... I am on ESA for depression and have, as you know been recovering from poverty vitamin induced pneumonia - unable to fight off the chest infection that was doing its rounds at Easter.  I have been having bowel symptoms which required MRI scan to rule out cancer.  Thank goodness it is not cancer my surgeon tells me but can only be put down to poverty and inadequate daily diet.  He has asked of this blog link to join the campaign as shocked at my plight!  YES THIS IS THE UK in  2018!

I have repeatedly requested the energy service provider that supplies my gas and electricity to accompany me to the APPG Poverty for them to put forward a pilot study to help women survivors of domestic violence.  To offer a basic unit of usage free and then tarifs above this to be billed.... So women at least are able to keep the basics running and have some heating in winter. 

I have had bilateral breast operation in the past with breakdown of wounds and a fistula to the left thoracic region I need to keep the scar tissue warm or I get a dermatome nerve pain on a scale of 0 -10 that is 8 if the scar is cold.

I am a 1954 born women so as you know am a WASPI women unable to get her state pension..... I have repeatedly requested my Gas & Electric service provider to join our collective voices to get the DWP to be urgently reformed and for Theresa May the PM to act by a change in policies on pensions for the 1950s women-  to have their compensation of the lost £46,000 from the sudden shift in pension age from 60 to 66 yrs... I am not the only one having horrendous problems being pushed more and more in poverty.

We need companies that provide essential services to shout for us all in Government as it is not fair, I as a customer want to pay my bills but how can I when I have been getting between £38 - £44 a WEEK... I have evidenced my "income" or pittance to the energy supplier yet now I am being subjected to the collection hassle of being rung on a Sunday morning! One gets the impression by the caller that surely I must have a stash of cash under the mattress!  But I have repeatedly told the company I have been left penniless with my perpetrator. 

I am told I am being too political and they cannot do anything about this - but yes my situation is the result of failed political policies and yes they can do something about it.... they can join the voices to shout for urgent reform of the DWP. 

Why can I NOT get over the need for a better financial support for women survivors of domestic violence at any age... and when you think urgent for those with children too..... 

But I am also battered by the ridiculously thought out policies of the Cameron government on benefits as if all that use benefits are wasters and MUST find work..I am not a "something for nothing" I have paid in a considerable amount of tax over my years.. near on half a century tax.... with payslips to show not a mathematical illusion as one of the Tory backbenchers stated in the parliament debate 14th December 2017 !

I am trying trying trying to get paid work in among this.... there are jobs that I have been keen to be shortlisted for but it does not happen.... or there are obstacles like a need to go back to uni for a RTP which I must pay for! But I have no funds for....I cannot train as a teacher with the government promotion drive and get £26,000 while training - this is only on offer for younger students not over 60s who must pay for their training... as if we have loads of dosh to pay for this. 

I am shocked with the voluntary work I do in a destitute centre - we have poverty on a grand scale in London that makes you feel we have been flung into Dickens time but with electric and all our modern day paraphernalia...

It is so hard to have dialogue with this company now as they see my frustration as me going crazy...! In some ways it is a crazed situation as I am so so frustrated as I would like FINANCIAL DIGNITY that has been robbed of me by violent perpetrators..... It hurts like hell to have come to my most vulnerable years not the woman of substance I could have been and would have been if not fallen victim to violent controller and scammer!

I have been used and abused and now the system batters me...

I have had a panic attack this morning with this call and been retching and nauseous as if choking...... I feel the system as got me by the throat... 

Instead of a Strong and Stable platform of support and some reparation for the criminal damage upon my being.... 

And we need the PM to listen to the 1950s women and let us have the State Pension we have earned with our years to the Queen & Country... many of us worked since 15 yrs like me my first job as an office junior  in 1969.

I hope that recent job applications come to an offer... but you can see that in all attempts to try you sort of get kneecapped on the battleground of trying with upsetting calls like today.

A society without compassion ceases to be a society. 
The way a society treats the elderly is also a measure of that society... Sadly we are failing the elderly women bitterly! 

Shame on the Prime Minister for NOT hearing our voices. 

Powerful Day in Parliament & BBC filming

Today I have been in Parliament and then to meet the WASPI women who have each week been turning up outside parliament to perform a silent protest for our state pension..... Over 60s born in 1950s have fallen in the abyss of the sudden shift in the retirement age for women from 60 to 66 yrs.... I was born in 1954 so have fallen into this horrible situation too..... So a domestic violence survivor that has been robbed of my finances by my perpetrator to then be robbed by government ill thought out policies.  I worked from 1969 paid tax (as indeed all my family have) then to be denied my state pension is disgraceful of government.  I have no savings as was left penniless-  nothing so reliant on the DWP helping me in my vulnerable part of my life.... as you have read from my story thus far.... I have lost my foothold in my career, do not get shortlisted for work these days but do get offered volunteer work.... this was sanctioned by the JSA... resulting in my vitamin deficiency lack of nutrition, my immune system  unable to fight off a chest infection and was hospitalised with pneumonia.... The lack of a strong and stable platform of support leading to costing the NHS in my care.... 
But I cannot get over how a woman Prime Minister is ignoring my voice and the voices of the WASPI women..... disgraceful and somewhat stupid as we are all voters and all this is a major vote loser for her party.  It was very alarming and but somewhat an example of the lack of compassion the Tories have... that Theresa Villiers Tory MP for Chipping Barnet came out of the Downing street gates and walked with nose up in the air passed the WASPI women at the gates...This is so shameful that Tory MPs cannot come to the people and listen and help them... the most precious asset any leader and government have is the people, the citizens of the land, the voters... so it is somewhat stupid to ignore the voters pain from mal policies... better to listen and reform the policies to lessen or stop that pain in society.... In contrast I met Hiliary Benn Labour MP for Leeds Central ... we stopped and talked outside Parliament on my way to the Emily Pankhurst statue for our Granny Revolution.. He stopped He listened. He gave me time, He took in all I was saying and had compassion for the pain I am in as a Domestic Survivor and WASPI....we even discussed the CPS failing of me and my time in the Westminster Hall debate on the CPS failings- from cutbacks!  He expressed his relief that I have John McDonnell as my MP to help care for my situation..... 

People need their voices heard... Women survivors need their voices heard, Women over 60 need their voices heard.... we are taxpayers and done a lot for Queen & Country, so to have Government ignoring us is a real vote loser. 

Thank you to the BBC for taking an interest in our cause and helping to get Women's Voices Heard.. I have done a piece to camera - and hope it is not edited but the film as to be taken down to an 8 mins broadcast... So hope there is a follow through on the campaign to get women domestic violence survivors voices heard too. My campaign is intertwined with the problem of reaching 64yrs with no assets. The state pension would give me some financial dignity & peace! 

My left arm as a pin & plate in from the brutal attack on me by my perpetrator, 

but my right hand is my writing hand and the one that holds the pen to mark a X on a ballot paper... 

Time to listen Mrs May! 

Womens voices being heard

Just been looking at my blog stats and it is amazing how Women's voices are being heard globally.  Sadly I still have not got the attention of the UK government on the need to urgently reform the DWP as women's lives are being put at risk with drops in support.  Women are left penniless by their controlling violent perpetrators it is part of the perpetrators behaviour pattern....they will financially cripple their victims as well as physically and psychologically abuse them.  The victim when she gets out has to then try to rebuild her life while going on a turbulent pathway of healing, detoxing from the ugliness of violence upon her...... For then the system to be so badly designed with policies from a previous PM David Cameron that demonises those on welfare benefits..... is shameful as the welfare benefits are there to help those that are in need and are vulnerable......I cannot seem to get Theresa May our present PM to respond to this campaign with an urgent reform of the DWP to give women a strong and stable pathway of support.... and the survivors of domestic violence needs some reparation for all the criminal abuse upon them....
She says she has put £20 million in to help women but this is NOT being felt by those on the front-line in rebuilding their lives. Women are being chased by bailiffs for said debts when it is the system that has failed her creating those debts! This is perverse given all that women have been through in their abuse. 

It is good that I have had a global response of visitors to this blog and some messages that they are shocked at the UK how I and others are being treated.... The lack of compassion for survivors and help is shameful.  To compound issues in my case (and there are other over 60s that have lost to controlling perpetrators) we that were born in the 1950s are denied our State Pension till we are 66 yet need this before to give us some financial dignity.  

The UK is my motherland and ancestral country.  My ancestors have paid tax to every King Queen and Government of this land..... everyone on this land pays tax be it from VAT to income tax.... so why is there such disarray in our system of supporting those in need?  It is bad management and very dangerous to leave women without funds to feed herself and keep up to bills to keep the phone link and have gas and electric...Women have fallen victims to controlling violent perpetrators and to keep dropping support or providing inadequate support could result in her life being lost to suicide! She has been made to feel unworthy by the manipulating perpetrator- then the system makes her feel a non person!  The drops in support also keep her tethered to the past pain and why she is in this dreadful state...To have financial dignity would give her the freedom to get all the support she needs, reconnect with her true self not the contaminated distorted self. 

Women need support to heal, detox from the ugliness of violence and helped to rebuild their lives....they may not be able to enter the job market immediately with loss of confidence and unable to cope with any work environment bullying.... She needs an overlap of support when ready to get back to work and once she has healed and is able to perform she will be one strong woman for any team, company or organisation.  
Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 

WASPI Pension campaign

I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

DWP drops support again

I have always been a caring person 

yet the system is failing to care for me in my time of need! 

Trying to get some financial dignity is becoming impossible. But I do not give up I am my mothers daughter and I will find a way somehow.  I was supposed to receive the reduced ESA payment yesterday but it was not there in my bank... it has taken 2 days to get through to the DWP.. phone lines bumped me off 4 xs yesterday then 5th time on hold and no customer service agent.  Today laid on bed with the classical music hold for hour and then got a kindly agent answer.  I feel that the agents are frustrated with the system as much as the claimants.  I am in a cusp of waiting for the Work Capability assessment report - I attended that last Wednesday in West Ealing.  A lovely staff nurse from Charring Cross did the assessment.  We were both agreeing if I had been in a fixed NHS contract when all this happened with Amine breaking my arm then leaving me after his ILR then I would have had the support of the NHS occ health, the right to 6 months sick with full pay & thereafter half pay and helped back into some part time hours and then maybe full time hours if I could... but I was in Zero hours contract being agency.. so no work no pay! I have not been a wimp, but women do have to go through some horrid pain of depression, need to detox from the ugliness of violence upon them... and to do all this with limited funds or drops in support is difficult and can exacerbate the pain not help. The present system can lead to the risk of suicide from the drops in support and the depression.  It feels like the system becomes your perpetrator battering you deeper and deeper into poverty and the feeling of being a non person. 

Last week not only did I have to touch all the past pain in a 2 hours assessment for the DWP but then unprepared unannounced the E.ON collectors came to me on the next day.  I have been trying to get E.ON to work with me and get some package of support together for women survivors of domestic violence. I have a ever increasing bill to pay with no funds to pay it. Other bills and food and clothing I need too pay too.  I try so hard. But have no £$£$ assets to help me!

I have volunteer hours with a British NGO one day a week that I can build my portfolio with and follow staff training programmes and it may lead to some paid work.  But the agent for the DWP says volunteer work is not accepted by the DWP for JSA as it is thought if you can do volunteer work you must find paid work... but I am 64yrs and paid work is not being offered me only volunteer work..... Even today I dropped into my local hospital to see if I can help with teaching - but the education department say there is no funding to offer me as a visitor lecturer or some part time teaching. They could only offer me volunteer teaching... which I suppose I could earn from writing up articles about... But then I have been trying to get some work in publication... It is a long time since I have had professional articles published.... even though I have been working online with a Palestinian nursing student and writing articles together we have not had them accepted for publication.  I have also been working online with Syrian refugees and tried to get an article in publication on the counselling we have been doing with the patterns and trends of feelings and emotions of what is shell shock. 

I am writing this update today to try and show you and me that I do have a worth in the world...but all I need is someone to help me with paid work or sponsorship. 

I have grabbed some books from my bookshelf just now to show you my knowledge base and skills this is only a glimmer of me and all my experience. I have worked in specialist areas of Coronary care including scrubbing for angiograms and angioplasties,  I have worked in Oncology in both a regional radiotherapy unit and professorial Gynaecology oncology unit.  I have worked in A/E and medical and surgical areas, I am a midwife worked in top teaching hospitals with experience in facilitating SVD in both high and low risk cases, caring in HDU and scrubbing for C-section - I was well liked by the Obstetricians that had private patients and would help with their caseload and worked in research posts too.  I enjoyed research and data base management too.

I have classroom teaching experience for adult education on the Access to Higher Education Health pathway..... I love blossoming people to reach their full potential.... I have a TEFL to help teach English and love teaching English for health professionals... My work with the Syrian refugees has made me aware that I love working with children too - in fact when my girls were little I would help in the classroom and the teacher would say Marjorie why don't you train to teach. But I opted for SEN RN RM BSc Nursing and took my career as nurse and midwife.  

But I fell victim to violent controllers and my life has been ransacked by not one to two perpetrator "husbands" - unworthy of the title of husband... as husband should be loving and caring for his wife, valuing her and respecting her for all she is and does. 

So here I am penniless reliant on the DWP helping me from all the tax I have paid in over my years working.  My first job in 1969...but as I am 1954 born I am denied my state pension which would afford me some financial dignity...  

I enjoy my volunteer work with refugees and my personal project Family Link Up but need funding for this... all attempts for grants, funding and sponsorship as led to no offers. But I will keep trying - the more I am challenged the more I wil fight for a better platform of support for women.

Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 

WASPI Pension campaign

I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Women's March in London

BBC report on Women's March

and here is a link to some of the creative stitching of banners today 

Creative Banners - BBC

Oh missed the women's march. Was ill this morning then found out when switched the TV on. My illness was depression shut down was curled under the blanket feeling that no matter what I do I cannot get out of the aftermath of my life ransacked.  Of course I have no financial dignity with the reduced ESA payments so this makes you feel like an outcast... and mega frustrated as you cannot do all the things you would like to do.... and eat as this is becoming an issue... how many of you have fancied a coffee and cake today in the local cafe - I could not do this as no funds to do.... or how many of you bought a gift or new item of clothing on the spare of the moment spend..... I used to be able too but now cannot not.....I am trying to get paid work as you know but no one interested in a 64yrs old. But do get offers of volunteer work - I try to market the NYR but no orders come through and I apply for grants and funding but with no success..... Been reading a book on the power of money and how we have to love it and use it in love to attract it.... I could earn good wage... but my perpetrators used me as a money making machine to take for their own agenda and sure was not one filled with love but their selfish greed and selfish goals... once they got what they wanted I was discarded as rubbish. 

I did shower and go down into London calmly and feeling mentally bruised. But have managed to speak to a small group about women's voices to be heard then perfect talked with a doctor writer activist with an international group. She actually lives near me wow kismet. We are going to email share material and meet up to muscle up my campaign. "Alls well that ends well!". But still would have been an energy boost to have march among the banners. Parliament police chatted with me. Trust me to miss the march after all hours i spend lobbying. But all disgusted with way DWP treating me & other survivors.
Please also take a look at the WASPI campaign as my situation is compounded by not being able to get the dignity of my State Pension too. 

WASPI Pension campaign

I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Some flowers in the suffragette colours on my way home this evening. 

Women's voices being heard around London

This week has taken amazing shape...we are in Ramadan but I am unable to take fast because of the medical conditions and the need to for the MRI scan this week.  But as is so true of this Lunar month there can be some amazing energy around where the doors of truth open. So on Wednesday the day after my scan there was a short notice email for me to meet one of the Victim Commissioner's team to take part in a face to face interview...... 

The Victim's Commissioner in the City Hall London is reaching out to hear victims voices from all types of crimes upon them.  This is to 1. ensure compliance with Victim's Code of Practice; 2. Bring the victims voice to the table; 3. Increasing awareness of support services and 4. Help refresh the London violence against women & girls (VAWG) strategy. 
London Gov site - Victims Commissioner 
I had filled in the online survey and was then asked if I would take part in an face to face interview... Such an amazing powerful step to get across the need for a stronger platform of support for women survivors to heal, detox from the ugliness of violence upon them and rebuild their lives... The present DWP and system is in need of major reform as it is as if the system becomes the perpetrator constantly battering the woman with drops in support and inadequate support.  There is a need for staff training in local councils, jobcentres and DWP to understand the journey that a survivor has to take psychologically when out of the violent relationship - it is not a case of "you are out then you are OK now!" the post traumatic stress is immense to work through and can be exacerbated with lack of support! 

What was caring and compassionate is that in view of my medical problems the interviewer arranged to meet me in Paddington... without me having to trail to City Hall... though I hope I can go to the city hall at some point.   So Women's Voices are being heard and will be in an overall report that will be published later in the year!


I have had time with my local MP John McDonnell's PA and we have gone over not only my immediate needs but the overall view on the failure of the present DWP and local council.

Then today been with another survivor in my neighbourhood to see the newly elected local councillors..... What is happening now is that there is a need for a cross party review of strategy to provide better and more understanding support. There is a need for local governments to feed back into central government that the present DWP policies are failing to support women at risk, putting them at further risk and are in need of major review... the funding the PM keeps referring too must be made available to help meet the therapeutic needs of women so she can break the ties to the past and move on in her life. The goal of support to be able to rebuild and reconnect with herself again.  

Both of us that sat before the local councillor today had major evidence of the failings of the system; Plus how we had from the induced poverty both been in hospital so cost the NHS which is bad housekeeping of any government .. with good support we would not have had our illnesses... and would be able to heal. Both of us are not lazy, in fact get exhausted with all the system failing battles to handle.  We would like to work and contribute to society. We are not "something for nothing" as present gov policies seem to suggest when in need of benefits... We have found ourselves in this situation because we fell victim to criminal controlling violent perpetrators.  I personally have worked 38 years in the NHS and as you can see from this campaign always see the wider frame of my situation as an overall concern - that all women aside me and behind me and some in front of me are in need of better support to help them regain their lives back! 
I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!

Post MRI scan wait for report

Please read my update on the petition written 14th May Petition Link to update 
you will read my continued struggle with the DWP and the deductions for the LBH council tax. But you will also read that I was booked for an urgent abdo/pelvic scan which I had yesterday.  Now let me explain the photo I have put in of the Hijab.  My daughter got me this for Ramadan.... it is so beautiful with healing colours and so soft to touch.  Though I cannot follow Ramadan with the ill health and investigations but some how this special month is still emanating some special energy of feeling cared for.  Yesterday the staff at the Hillingdon hospital scan unit were so so kind caring respectful and preserved my dignity.  I was permitted to wear my scarf in the procedure which helped me so much to cope... I could snuggle in the softness of this to help keep me calm through an uncomfortable procedure... uncomfortable because of my presenting symptoms not clinical practice.  The clinicians were gentle and kind and skilful. 

staff are shocked and not happy with the lack of benefit support and the fact I cannot get my state pension 

I am costing the NHS with all the medical problems I am accruing... and I strongly feel this is from a lack of good financial support shoving me more and more into poverty.  In among this hassled by housing officer to pay the outstanding rent from the benefit cap... but look at this how much I get a week with deductions for the council tax for not only this OAP council bungalow but the last property were I was brutally kicked.. 

I was contacted by the housing officer for Hillingdon and I am referred to as the lady that will not pay her rent... I corrected her to say "no I am willing to pay but have no money to pay..if I could would pay in advance. you put in a position of do I pay you and starve or do I not pay you and manage to eat something!" This is not acceptable! not acceptable to UN directives on care of women that have been subject to violence in war and peace time. 

You are chased for "debts" that are not your debts but the system failing you debts... as there are drops in support, sanctions and deductions.. 

I have actioned this with a good meeting with John McDonnell's local PA. 
I have also been contacted by the Victims commissioner office and have interview tomorrow with a team member. 
I have contacted Macmillan Cancer Support MacMillan Link as I am worried with my scan and very worried that if I am to go on this pathway I am mega vulnerable with no financial dignity or freedom...of course I do not have a loving husband aside me to help me and care for me... I feel alone but the MacMillan phone response team were brilliant getting in my frame of reference and I felt a hug of care around me. They are concerned over my situation and even if the report is negative still want to keep updated on me. 

 -  do you know if I have cancer and I had my car and financial freedom I would be straight down the M4 to the Bristol Cancer Centre Penny Brohn Centre to book in for a healing week and have some sanctuary.... this is the issue for healing from my Domestic violence and any illness is there is a need to access all the help you can get to be successful on a road to well being. That does demand a good platform of support from the DWP and some reparation for the crime upon your being..... but the system treats the victim as a criminal in a way or that is what it feels instead of helping and caring and being loving towards the victim. To add to the situation I am a 1954 baby so forbidden my state pension till 2020 at this rate not going to be around and I want it recognised that the system is exhausting me.  For those that say why are you not working Marjorie - well I have been applying for work but do not get short listed these days at my age... but get voluntary unpaid work offered of which I got sanctioned on JSA for taking up on voluntary work and not a paid job.. well if no paid work is offered what can I do? In a way it is a shame I cannot get funding for all I do to change a bad system.  When government MPs say WASPI 1950s born women should do apprenticeships and work I counter this by saying nay Consultant posts and possibly consultant advisers to government as we have half a century of work experience... Many of us have fallen on unpredicted hard times... so could do with the state pension we paid in for over our years of work. 

I have to keep turning my pain into campaign to help all women's voices heard!
A society without compassion ceases to be a society for it is compassion that holds it together.

Turning pain into Campaign!

Reform to help women heal and rebuild.... when will we get this right and fair for women? Sign the petition it is still on the go till I get some debate for reform. Petition for Strong & Stable Pathway of Support for Survivors 
This campaign must continue till achieved it goals no matter what happens to me... I have to get a better pathway of support for women!